Married,but only one of us(me)thinks so. Its been 2yrs but i still wear wedding band. LOVE or Crazy?

we were married only 17 months... before i dropped her at work, went to pick her up that night and poof! i got a 4 sentence letter with her ring inside, and she was then over the Atlantic on her way back to England, where she's always lived before falling for me. (a brief fall, obviously)

regardless - i said my vows and meant them. and i waited until i was in my late 30's to marry just tio be sure she was 'the one'. she was certainly the one "I" fell for and loved everything about her. and yes, i wish she was still here. guess she didnt care much for New York, America or me.

but to walk around without the band feels wrong. i consider myself still married.
is that immature? i know the likelihood of her returning to me is a million to one, but i vowed to love and cherish her - till death do we part - good times and bad. and no, they don't get any worse than this!

When do most people who still love the other but was dumped - esp. those that truly didnt see it coming. - when did they remove their bands - and am i expected too? or is it every man'd choice if and when he decides too? or is it some sign of crazy? i dont like being asked, or getting those: 'so your married' questions. it isnt for that. in fact i often put my hands in my pockets so i dont have to explain where 'she' is.

I made those vows to her - and i meant them. and a man's word is sometimes all he has, esp. now for me anyways. she considers herslef 're-singled' ive been told - she wont even speak with me. shes acting like an abused spouse! So not who i was or am. never would i do anything like that. but still, she wont even tell me where she is in England, wont call, write, changed her email address. just like I - wee - never existed.

thats her.
but i wasnt made that way. what do most people do?
anyone?


- Lost in Love, at a table for One.